Walmart Boy Chronicles...

This will be like my special edition writing about a random boy...That I am never going to have a true conversation with or ever bump into on an ordinary day....

I went to Walmart today with my sister. We needed to buy shampoo, soap, and toothpaste and other things...We walked to the Walmart and I look to my left were the cashiers are and I don't see him...It is a bit hard to pretend that you are not looking if you make eye contact with a man that can be your father...and when you try to look that direction once again you make another sudden contact with a slutty looking girl...and you just turn away and forget about your objective of finding the cashier boy you want get in the line for...

My sister was able to find the things we needed quickly...and it was time to pay...I'm not quite sure what made my sister and I go by the aisle ten items or less...and guess what...Yes indeed, there he was...I made my sister stand in that line...She kinda gave me a look because the line that was next to the 10 items or less aisle was shorter...but I convinced her that the line was shorter, but the people had more things to purchase...

There he was scanning away and bagging customers purchases...It seemed like he had dyed his hair a bit more and he was wearing his Walmart blue shirt and his name tag was not facing the customer...I remembered what my friend had told me that I should try finding out his name...but no luck with that...He didn't say anything at all to the people in front of me...He just scanned and bagged...

When it was the turn of the elderly lady in front of me...He said something to her...because she had an open bag of peanuts that he was going to scan through and the elderly lady also told him to put her groceries in her recycled bag...(she was saving the planet)...Then it was my sister and I...I thought he wasn't going to say anything to us...but I was wrong he said..."How are you guys doing?"....my sister never answers to people who are trying to be nice...I just say "good." He then asked if all of the things I had put in the counter was all together...and I said "yes"...Our eyes met...How can you literally have a conversation? you technically can't....

and then he bagged our things...I grabbed my first bag and I failed to spin the black thing were he had bagged the other things...He was nice and spin it for me and then he said..."Have a nice day.." I smiled and said "Thanks."

I'm pretty sure when he gets bored of not saying anything he then says something...Or I just get lucky that he says something to me...(probably not)...He might not even think much when I stand in his aisle to purchase my things by him...I don't care if I have to stand a long time waiting in his line...ha, ha...But the little moment makes a difference for me to write about it.....He will never know it is about him...because he will never read this blog...

Pastilla Luv....

Mi Jolt of Happiness Pastilla...

Pastilla is the band that has always been there for me musically in every moment...I can literally say that I grew up with my favorite band...Their albums have always been with me since I started my college years and beyoooond...and I'm going to grow old with them...ha, ha...I was feeling a bit sad today...and I was watching You Tube Videos and I found this song that I hadn't heard from them...I swear to you all that I danced in my room...

Currently Obsessing on Luna is Honey...

New Thoughts...

I was thinking about writing a poem about a "Superhero"...My friend told me that in her favorite comic book shop that is called Nostalgic Comixxx...It is located in Alhambra..there is going to be an open mic night...where you can read a poem...
This poem will be the first one of this year that I would write...
I haven't written a poem since 2008...
It's been a long time...
but I want the words to flow on their own...
My poems get made in the most random places like when I am walking or when I'm driving...
Then I rush home to write them up...

A Nostalgic Feeling...

I have to be quite honest, but I was feeling a bit nostalgic yesterday...I was watching music videos of Yoko Ono and John Lennon and the way their love story was so magical...the music the art..I never thought that the whole issue of not being in a relationship has never made me feel so lonely...but for some reason yesterday I was thinking about how great it will be to have my heart feel something special for another human being...having someone to technically hold hands with and share a couple of laughs with...perhaps even grow old with them...

I never been the girlfriend type,
or the insecure one...if someone is with you is because they are willing to love every inch of you and the need to be jealous should not be even a consideration..

But as I laid in my bed I just wondered if there was a boy out there who was feeling the same kinda way like me...if they are so unlovable...perhaps unapproachable..

I never have felt the need to be desperate for affection...I just wanted to happen on its own..
A couple of words...
and the heart wanting more...
a nice conversation...
that will glue the whole moment into a blissful memory..
and endless possibility..

Girls who complain about their boyfriends...

Please take me out of your conversation. I was hanging out with a couple of colleagues at work. All of the women I was gather with are in loving relationships. I'm the only one who is not in a relationship. The three women were discussing about all the issues they have with their boyfriends families and mother in laws. Only one of them is married she is pretty young 23...and the other two are in their early 20's...I couldn't believe how much heartache and difficulty it is to be in a looooong lasting relationship. They went on for about 30 minutes. I couldn't quite add anything to the conversation, because I haven't been in a relationship in such a long time.
I could only recall that the person I dated for about 4 years was really neat. His mom was quite genuinely nice to me and since I didn't quite hanged around his family that often then I had nothing to complain about it. He probably had more things to complain about me then I had about him. It drive him insane when I wanted to write a poem with him. The only contribution he did on one of my poems was to make it gloomy and dark instead of cheerful and sweet. There was a point in the relationship were I wanted out, but afraid to be alone. I remember how he didn't take me seriously the first time I wanted to break up with him.
When I was listening to these girls complain so much about their current situation. I just realized how glad I was that I didn't end up marrying Mr. Gloomy. I probably would of been sitting there contributing to the bashing of men. (pretending to be happy) They continued on and on...and I couldn't even find an excuse to leave... they finally realized that I wasn't saying anything and they all turned to me to ask me if I had relationship issues.
I was like, "No, the only drama I have it is to write academically for grad-school that's the only thing I have going on at the present time." They all looked at me and they said, "Lucky." I bet they were feeling sad for me, because I don't have a boyfriend."
I've been fine with my lonely self for a very looooooong time.

I wanted to be your friend...(boy)..

My friend and I always have funny boy anecdotes...We always find ways to talk about random boys we don't know a thing about...She found this guy at a comic book shop he works there it is a new place in Alhambra. She truly enjoys comic books...But the thing that struck her the most was the nice guy who works there.. He recommended her some kool comic books plus he gave her a free comic book for the purchase of the comic books she had bought. The conversation was quite sweet...(He gave her Superman's wedding)...My friend couldn't stop thinking of how nice he was. We gave him a nickname Romanin...that's not his name...but his real name reminded me of noodles...ha, ha...I can't wait to go to the comic book store to see Romanin in person. Since my friend is illustrating a comic book...there's going to be a lot fun boy anecdotes for her boy characters...

I happened to have found a kool looking guy that works at the local Walmart...We haven't quite given him a nickname quite yet...Because like my brother said "He looks like he belongs at the Urban Outfitters."...I just wonder if he is writing some kind of paper on working at the Walmart...He appears to be into art or perhaps he is in a band...I picture him working at Amoeba, because he looks kool like that....I can't wait for my friend to see him and what kind of nickname we will give him.. We need the inspiration to create our boy characters...You never know who will be next in our funny boy anecdote stories...