Single...

I decided to write about this issue of being "single." This week has been a bit crazy hanging out with colleagues at work and having to hit the most popular topic of conversation of babies and relationships. I know that I am the only one that has been "single" for such a long time in that circle of girls. Every time this topic comes up. (I feel like hiding under the desk, because I don't want to talk about it). I feel like I have learned to be on my own and depend on my own decisions and never felt the need to consult with a partner about it. I have been too busy living my own life to actually analyze why I've been "single" for sooo long. But they managed to make feel really lame about my "single status."

This week I finally gave up on giving excuses for myself. How many more times Can I say:

"Guys only see me as a friend."
"I'm never the chosen one."
"There's women who know how to use their sex appeal."
"I don't need a guy to be happy."
"There are two types of woman in this planet the one's who are meant to be a wife and a mother. The one's who were brought up with the value of having a family is the number one priority that gives a purpose to their life and I am not that kind of woman. I don't need to be identified as someone's girlfriend, wife, or mother. I just want to be me."

I think that I have used all these reasons because I don't want to feel like I am desperately seeking for a man to love me. It might sound silly but it is the truth. I finally have the courage to tell this to myself. I truly feel like Shrek now peeling slowly the layers of myself. The other cool thing is that one of my close friends got engaged on her birthday. I feel sooo happy for her, because she was the friend that understood the way I felt about being "single."

Now, I am ready to give some "guy" out there a chance. I don't know when it will happen or how. But I know that I will like to have an actual "date" to my friend's wedding. I don't want to be the "single lady" not having a dance partner for the big event. I wouldn't want to sit in an empty table waiting for someone to ask me to dance.

This is going to be a true challenge for myself to find ways to approach "guys" and give them nice compliments. Stay tune for the "Boy Diaries"...until I find "the guy"....If anyone has suggestion don't hesitate to write me a comment...